Life
in South Lebanon's Israeli-run prison Mounir B. Abboud, guest contributor
January 3, 1998, Jeddah, Saudi Arabia This article appeared in the
Saudi Gazette, for which the author is the Beirut correspondent Muhammad
Fouad Nehme was 20 years old when he was captured by the Israelis
in South Lebanon. For nearly a decade, the Israelis condemned him
to the hellish time warp of Khiam Prison in the occupied zone. Resistance
fighter Nehme was finally released with 45 other Lebanese in an exchange
of prisoners of war between Lebanon and Israel carried out by the
International Committee of the Red Cross. Nehme, now 31, spent nine
years in a two-meter-by-two-meter unlit prison cell with four other
prisoners. "Living among cockroaches and rats with the smell of excrement
from a plastic bucket, which was cleaned out only twice a week, was
not as unbearable as what we experienced from our captors. The South
Lebanese Army (SLA) men would ruthlessly rampage through our rooms,
threatening to shoot us at any second. We were beaten, tortured and
ridiculed but were never given the one bullet that would have freed
our souls." Nehme added that an Israeli soldier told them they were
purposely left "to die slowly" when a prisoner begged to be killed
on the spot. He spent much of his time "brainstorming" with fellow
prisoners to try and make their lives that little bit more bearable.
They rolled their toilet paper into a long thin filament that remained
ignited all day long if one end was dipped into the "bucket" -- because
of the methane gas given off by the excrement. "The guards would light
our cigarettes only twice a day", explained Nehme. "We had to invent
this method so we could smoke at any time, unnoticed of course." They
shaped a spoon out of old plastic wire, creating essentials which
they were not provided. Prayer beads were made from olive pits. Nehme
wanted to paint and was often punished for drawing on prison walls
with a smuggled pencil. "I did find ways to enjoy myself and the one
heavenly feeling I experienced in prison was the sight of the moon."
About every fifteen days, he spotted the moon from the corridor window
which he and his friends could just see from the ventilation hole
in their cell. "Everyone would be summoning their neighbors while
I would light the leftover, one-third of my cigarette, lie back and
drift into a dream. I have to admit it was the most reviving feeling
I shared between myself and the world beyond the prison bars." Every
once in a while, he heard the voice of a female soldier as she passed
by, "so uncommon and sweet it sounded as if an angel were singing."
Nehme said the men eased their boredom by exercising -- doing push-ups,
sit-ups and climbing on each other's backs to do pull-ups from the
bars of the ceiling. The prisoners built strong friendships and spent
most of their time in deep conversation. Every day, the men engaged
in dream interpretation after their morning prayers. "To keep our
minds and memories functioning as well as to save ourselves from insanity
and the inevitable depression, we told each other all we had learned
about life and about ourselves." The prisoners were never properly
informed about what was happening in the outside world. After he was
released, Nehme was shocked at how much the world had changed while
he was locked away for nine years. "I had only heard of cellular phones
in prison. I was amazed by the drastic technological advancement of
cars, telephones and even machine-guns." Many things had changed in
Nehme's village, Haboush, Nabatieh. "New buildings had been constructed
and some relatives and close friends had died and others had got married.
Yet the biggest shock of all was when I found out the Soviet Union
had dissolved." On his release, Nehme wanted to go back and join the
resistance fighters in South Lebanon but they said it was "best for
him to take some time off and relax." He felt he had to make up for
the time lost by just "letting go", making the most of his new-found
freedom and exploring life. The first thing he did was go to the beach.
"The minute we arrived, I ran towards the sea, jumping and rolling
on hot sand before plunging into the water. I was paddling, splashing
water all over my face and shouting with joy while my friends were
watching in amazement." Nehme remembered how, when he was a prisoner,
he would imagine the taste of salt water in his mouth, wondering if
he would ever swim again. Nehme went on a two-week vacation to Iran
two months after being freed and this was a "major stress-relief".
He had a good time during his first eight months of freedom, but then
things began to change. "I started questioning myself and wanted to
start a new life." He felt that he had regressed as a person and he
became very depressed and lonely. He felt cut off from the world and
it was difficult for him to relate to the changed lifestyles. He admitted
that the first thing he thought of when he was released was getting
married. He "knocked on several doors" until he realized he was pushing
himself too hard. He has, however, found what he was looking for.
After an engagement of eight months, he is now married. He is working
as a construction supervisor in South Lebanon. "It was hard cooperating
with people, especially when I was trying to learn the business from
scratch." He wants to enjoy his independence, maintain his job and
have a family; however, he will "always contribute to the struggle
for regaining the occupied land."
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